I’ve been called.
And when you’re called, you can’t hide it for very long.
Because you’re being called deeper into yourself, deeper into your darkness, deeper into your strength and being called deeper above all into your calling and purpose.
This year has been incredibly hard in more ways than one. I’ve had my ego shattered more times than I can count.
Hurt has run through my veins like rivers and to some extent on the outside all that remains of a shell of what has gone before.
And that’s what needed to happen for me to step into the light and own what it is I’m here for.
That’s not a pity call. At the same time beautiful women have surrounded me from all over the globe, as I have them and it’s an incredible feeling, to know that you will fall and yet at any point – any – you can reach out to them, as I have done, and be caught in their feathery wings.
I thank God for these women. I am thankful for sisterhood – and for the few men too, who have also kept a flame burning as they too evolve on their own journeys.
There are also moments of incredible beauty, and being caught by the landscape of this place. Caught by mountain and ocean and held together by the smiles of strangers and tender gestures.
And at the same time
We are being broken down and stripped away
Right before the ascension.
And that it happens and will continue to happen
Until we learn the lessons
Or simply commit
To doing what needs to be done.
Until then our desire and our reality will burn like fire consuming the dried earth
Until we fill our souls
With what really matters.
For me I know that it’s words
It’s following the desire to write and encourage and teach through words
Through the strength of my voice alone.
I’ve had to strip away courses I thought I was aligned to
Some I spent seemingly forever caught up in
Books I wasn’t ready for
People who simply were not aligned
All of this I was ready for – because I asked for it, of course –
I asked for deeper purpose. I asked for soul sisters. I asked for connection and truth and desire and honesty.
And of course you get what you desire
In a way that throws you like you’ve just been spun up to the moon
And you’re left howling at it on your knees broken fragments over the floor
But really –
Only for a moment
because this is the way it was always meant to be
And you’ve always known.
So if you’re in stagnation right now
Or feeling like you’re not sure where to head
Still trying to hold on to the old ways
You need to know
There isn’t any old way for you left to cling on to.
It’s gone, broken, will no longer work.
All there is now is forward
Diving into your truth.
Forward, into you.
Forward into the truth of your story and your fragile yet entire fullness
Away from the brittle ego and the falseness of the persona you tried to cultivate you once held
Because the alternative?
To wait until you’re stripped away again
To wait until the pain strikes again
So I’m exploring peace. I’m exploring the truth of fulfilment and purpose far beyond income generation. You can ask ‘but how do I make money from this?’ all you want but while you consistently chase the money alone your bliss will continue to evade you.
I’m exploring what it means to be a mother beyond patriarchal expectation of having the ‘good kids’. I’m exploring wilderness and wildness and sisterhood and cultivation of goodness.
Roam with me.
Dream with me.
Discover with me
But above all –
Release with me.
Release expectation of what this was ever meant to be about.
Because this is about life and business that is full. Drunk on nourishment and nurture and peace and calm and deep joy and pleasure and releasing anxiety and old cords of expectation and emotion that keep us captive. And money too of course! as a reflection of your deeper purpose.
That’s the REAL work less revolution.
And that’s more of what you’ll receive here, from this point forward.
For you if you’re in this deep and incredible journey to a business and life of true purpose
Of excitement too but not in the adrenaline chasing kinda way
Persistent chasing of the things that leave you unfulfilled –
The game has changed now. And if you don’t evolve together with the consciousness of your own soul, the changed energies of the world –
Continue to try to resist, making it ONLY about money or success or prestige or even the look at me egoism, false movements and ambition that are grounded in personal achievement only –
The struggle cycle remains.
Break the cycle
See and accept and release the wounds
That IS your work now
And that’s all there is.