I know I’m not the only one who feels it.
Eyes burning as I sit cradled in the belly of Bucharest airport, two hours sleep flights interconnecting and twisting like my thoughts and here I am still, too many coffees to count and still writing writing writing
And soon I’ll land in Milan and Italy where I’m working with my soul clients on 1:1 days, two days to breathe in between and another client calls into the midnight hours and says me too?
Please fly here?
She books me into a hotel of calm stone which stands majestically and magically along the Italian coast
And I of course say yes even though it means six flights in six days and it’s not because I’ll get to see more of beautiful
but because this is what it looks like when your heart is on fire for what you do and those you burn for and the work you were always meant to do.
Yet this morning, momentarily for a square shaped second the
feeling of –
You know? The one where you see on social media the countless likes the countless shares the 1000K followers
And your heart sinks a little because IG rarely favours the multipassionate, those who don’t fit into the boxes – the yogi mama entrepreneurs who love business AND travel AND spirituality AND faith AND well basically for the full hearted ones who love the whole of life in it’s entirety and who simply cannot be boxed into one thing…
And you wonder, briefly what’s left for the rest of us
And then you remember
This is your EGO talking.
Because what matters is not the square or the like but that you’re building an entire life based on something that matters
And right now you’re even pausing to consider that you might matter LESS based on the value of some tiny pixelated squares?!!
On whether an ALGORITHM deems you worthy?
We’re chasing the likes and hanging our worth on social media like the seagull chases the worm and yet we are the worm ready to be dropped at any minute..
I’ve been reading this book and it’s about creating something that lasts… basically, something that matters.
I have to do that!
Create something that matters? You mean… really follow through on my purpose?
Not just post pics and updates and talk and actually create something that matters?
And that’s what this is really about isn’t it…
It’s far easier to chase the likes than to follow purpose, easier to appease the ego than to actually step into believing that you
Could create something truly life changing.
Truly transformational beyond the overused word thrown about because it’s buzzy like sugarcandy
And I know you’re feeling the call to legacy now
Away from social approval and into your earthy body down on its knees, to feel pierced by the concrete which says you’re here
Because when you feel truly significant,
Like you truly do matter
You’re far more likely to believe you can create that which needs to pour out of you like a rainbow
But right now it’s pulling out your intestines through your mouth, an ugly painful process of reaching through to your heart and your guts in your miserable and wretched attempt to spew your truth which is contaminated anyway by THEIR approval.
When actually when you realise that you matter beyond that which you can even imagine and therefore
You can create the memorable
The life changing
The support system this earth and planet needs
You have all you need within me to BE the change
You have to believe it first
And you think you’ll gain that in your filters, in your faux let’s ask everyone on social media a question and I’ll generate a load of response which will build my interaction type BS, the social approval pretty and goddess approved –
Your purpose is WITHIN
And you’re letting it fall through the square shaped holes and it’s so agonising and painful to watch-
When more often
Turn OFF and turn IN
Feel your knees bleeding as you connect with your painful but incredibly glorious self
Where the only Like that matters comes to be
Or don’t, and I’ll see you over on the next social channel, chasing the next big thing you dream of becoming
What if this was ever far more simple than most of us would believe?
Just one thing. Just your one thing. That. And that is all.
Everything else you can rip up and start all over again any time you choose.
With the likes and the follows and the comments and the please see me, please notice me, please like me and then maybe I’ll get noticed and stand out and get sponsorships and then I’ll make it?
And right now I’m stripping back my entire IG feed to a little more peace a little more connection a little more ME.. and what matters to me –
This post was written to me anyway.
As a reminder
Of what truly matters-
Squares of life
Or living it in full colour.
At some point you’re going to have to make the choice to go full tilt into what this has always been about for you anyway
And continue to linger around
Waiting for the day you get noticed and gain that REAL dream.
But the thing that is perhaps more sad than the ego driven likes
Is that you’ve always had the power inside of you all along
You just have to realise the only one who can approve it, like it, love it and share it