This island in the med is burning, temperatures and humidity rising even more.
The kids are home from school and our lives are a little chaotic and we are in an unfamiliar environment until we return to La Dolce Vita (our villa) in a few weeks and I feel disconnected, adrift, stuck again, my clients too (of course)
And so naturally we want to heal
Do anything that moves us forward
Heal replenish thrives restore and yet
We forget the simplest way to reconnect with ourselves,
which is simply what my four year old could tell you right now as she just poured an entire sachet of sugar from the table into a jug of milk for her to drink!!!!
The inner child – and the outer one!- doesn’t always need healing!
Sometimes it simply demands to thrive on –
In the haste to heal
To produce to succeed to win to grow to be
We forget the pleasure!!! We forget the fun
The sheer joy inherent in expansion, creation, growth
And of course! I’ve been blocked again over and over the past few days, stuck for finding the words, stuck for finding the flow
And yet I could feel my inner child and soul DEMANDING more flow and creation and space the exact same way my four year old does-
Simply because it’s BORED, really. And how could it not be when I simply haven’t bothered to provide what it needs, the fun and the pleasure?!?!
No wonder God or the Universe or maybe even the whispering of my own soul called to me at the weekend and told me- time to retreat, for six entire months, to write my next books –
Not because it’s in need of escape or healing!
We don’t need a getaway because we need an escape
But because often we simply don’t have enough pleasure worth staying for.
I didn’t need escape or healing or even withdrawal from society lol, even though deep down I’m a massive introvert really! Well ok – extro-intro –
I felt the call to retreat and was facing the Block so many times in my work, my writing, blogging, even speaking! – simply because I was craving more pleasure
More sugar in my milk!
A call to more things which feed my soul which is not the endless training rerun or guru telling me more more more (even though I know that more Is my destiny because without more you only have LESS and this whole post is about MORE)!
But instead more of… this.
I live on the island of Aphrodite!! It simply IS pleasure!!! It’s swimming in the Mediterranean Sea at sunrise, it’s sunset yoga, it’s roaming in the mountains glamping in the hills, figs straight from the branch and reading Anais Nin on the beach and hot hot heat of summer nights – and I’m missing it all!!
I can count on one hand the ocean swims I’ve had this year!!
So I wondered what on earth had happened
What was going on
How did I become disconnected from myself not to realise that I was not nurturing her??
And so far away from that thing I love the most, to write and storytell and lead and speak – my entire purpose!! to release women into connection with their soul and each other and energy and nature and restore confidence and creativity and sheer joy –
I couldn’t even teach! My throat so sore and when it came to teaching what is undoubtedly my most transformational program so far I felt too blocked to even create the first training – and missed my own deadline!!
I decided to follow pleasure
Went out with one of my gorgeous goddess girlfriends and deliberately forgot all about the training that was already late!!
To forget about my obligations entirely
Don’t you know your clients are waiting? That they’ve PAID MONEY for this?
I did it anyway –
We drank espresso martinis and sat next to the gentle sea on the rocks and we did not stop laughing for a second and when I got up the next morning despite only having had three hours sleep of course
I had the most powerful training flowing through my head ever!!! And I couldn’t wait to record it!!!
Because of course they had paid money and I had obligations to fill
But how would it be had I showed up
Created something for the sake of it
Worked ‘just for the money?!?!’ Don’t they deserve nothing less than FULL energy, full alignment, full power?!?! Blazing at %?!?!
That’s what people pay for!!!!! They pay for the best version of you to show up. That is your obligation and commitment!!!
What about you then
Don’t you deserve the best version of yourself to show up to yourself
And the way you’re STARVING her of complete and utter abandonment and pleasure
Just burying yourself in the business of work and obligation
Well what about the obligation to yourself, to the desires of your wild soul?!?
We pressure, expect, bind ourselves
When we forget that which our inner child cries for
The sheer pleasure inherent in life and play and fun and love and magic?
Is it any wonder then
Our creations don’t flow
We enter into fear, self-doubt, being stuck and low energetic states?!
We simply aren’t tuned in enough to hear what she needs
Blocked her and us from receiving absolute and infinite pleasure.
But pleasure? Is an open doorway. Waiting for you to choose to walk through it and PLAY, any time you wish.
My tiny daughter, she needs it. THRIVES on it!
And why shouldn’t she?
It lights her up
Keeps her sense of awe and wonder alive.
Pleasure helps you to burn so brightly like all you are made for,
So fall into it then – and experience the joy and the release that comes from nurturing your creativity, your inner child, your entire soul.
PLEASURE IS YOUR OBLIGATION.
PS my new program YOUR SACRED STORY – Unleash Your Voice, Release Your Truth and Write Your Heart Is launching THIS WEEK!!!
This is going to be a deep journey into writing – everything from powerful journaling with intention, to writing with authenticity and vulnerability, to writing that book you’ve been dreaming of –
I’m going to be sharing everything I’ve learned as a bestselling author and writer and guiding you through the process of releasing your stories!
Details coming soon!