I sat while the monsoon rains fell outside
Journaling on something I had not journaled on for a while
On the subject of being more.
Shouldn’t I be more?
There is always something more we could be
Something more we should have
Something else to be doing
What is it I’m missing?
And while I long released the ego siren call of comparison
I still journaled for two hours –
Maybe I should go THIS way
Create THIS thing
Or maybe that way?
Get published here
Niche down a bit more there
Create this course
Create this big huge ‘thing’
I floated into confusion.
the rain dropped on to palm leaves. Dropped me down again
Into my body.
I watched it for a while
Remembered the woman who massaged my arm in the salon.
The answer is not outside of us.
It’s within us.
And of course we are both the problem
And the answer
And the key
And the lock
And the thirsty leaf
And the kind rain
I had to take it back to what I had known all along!
I realised I had been resisting strategy
Because I had been resisting the truth
How can we give strategy and support to a weak root?
Following strategy without root is like giving a flower the wrong food. It’s when we push ourselves into choices that never truly become us.
the ‘only’ available job there is
The quick easy food choice
The path that we think provides the money
The quick parenting fixes
The courses we hope will fix our business with strategy alone
The popular social share without consideration
The entire time forgetting to take it back
To what really matters
Of course I have to lead with my words
With more books!
It’s all I’ve led with since I was 9 and wrote my first book
I spent all my time at uni writing in cafes
My first ‘proper’ book, about photography,
totally changed my life and business
And here I was
Trying to find ‘something else’
Or to brand that or make it something More
As if it’s not enough somehow!
When you’re swamped with chaos
The luxury of too much choice
Our work is to realise that we already have all of the answers
And to remove whatever stops us from experiencing them.
You already have all you need to move out from struggle, apathy, lethargy, frustration, loss and lack.