We are the passionate ones, the starlit-
The ones it all comes to so easily now
Whatever we desire,
Because we learned young to survive, and now while the rest scrabble for understanding and finding their way
We found our own pathway too many moons ago to count –
And yet – isn’t that power so great that we fear it?
I survived with nothing. As a child everything was scarce- money, food, attention, clothing-
There simply wasn’t anyone to save us – so we learned to do it for ourselves, and you learn fast.
You learn to go by instinct, by feeling, by emotion.
You learn to read people as soon as they walk into a room and you learn how to adjust your behaviour accordingly which is why today I can walk into any room and hold a conversation happily with anyone –
You learned what they call Hustle before they could even spell the word
Because that’s how you survived.
And yet – you’re forgetting it all!
You forget that how you survived was on feeling alone-
That FEELING always got you what you wanted which is exactly what core manifestation practice is, feeling your core desire vibrate through every cell in your body-
And holding on to that firework feeling because it’s the only choice you have and doing that is what eventually got you what you needed.
Now that your choice is far greater than survival
Now you’re hovering on your edge of greatness
And REAL passion
Not the kind of lovers false arguments but the kind of passion that forces you to wake early in the mornings
You’re forgetting it!
Looking at what you SHOULD be doing
Asking what THEY need you to do
Wondering if it is really the right thing to do-
– you’re burying your feelings, and I know because, me too-
Queen of turning them off like a light when it needs to be done and over –
I turned them off when I miscarried, through parental divorce, after online bullying and playground bullying and once an incident where a group of girls came at me one night brandishing broken glass bottles –
I turned them off and in survival mode I entered autopilot and I survived.
But of course what gets you through is not the disconnection
The forcing it down
The denying all feeling –
What gets you through is the very thing that you missed when you turned out the light.
That the point of LIVING is not merely to survive.
Your life is not lived as an emergency situation- but maybe it should be
This is it, after all. One shot. And soon that shot will be gone, missed while you had your eyes wide shut –
Too busy trying not to feel and doing everything we THINK is right
All we ever needed to know was how to feel again
In order to feel fully alive.
Instead we fear entering into the woods of our soul, because we know the coming change is strong and strange and powerful
And we fear change, and we fear growth within the change because it means again –
Upheaval that comes within the upleveling.
But when you choose to find your way through what you FEEL –
You’ll get what you really want.
They told us that we think too much!!! when what they really meant was –
We are the ones who FEEL too much
Made us believe we had to THINK instead of feel
But that’s only for the survivors and remember
You were never born just to survive, darling.
But to have all that you want
And to have all of it
You just need to find you way back to what you feel.