90% of the time my answer is always ‘journal on it’
For a while, I felt guilty
Surely I should be providing MORE, more value somehow, more ‘strategy’, more technique
More – do this one thing! and you’ll get the result!
It’s always the same – writing my books – surely there should be MORE?
Surely work can’t be this easy??
Surely we can’t just do whatever we want, ALL day every day??
Then I realised – I felt – that if I was feeling guilty for not providing more, for not being more –
Then no wonder my clients would feel that was not enough –
But worse – that they too, would feel not enough.
That the things they create, would somehow not be enough
The actions you take – somehow, not enough.
And then – we are called to remember.
We see the vastness of the fields spread like a blanket or the mountain edges piercing the sky or the energy of the wave as it lands on the shore and we remember the vastness of it all, the strength of nature and infinite energy
And what it does
Is call your soul to remembering
That you too, are infinite energy
So how can you ever not be enough
How is it ever failing?
What you are doing day in day out is simply changing energetic states
Like the rise and fall of a wave
There is no without to be had
There is nothing ‘more’ to be found
And the answer is always to journal because giving yourself permission to find the answer within is always the hardest part
when we are taught the answer always comes from elsewhere
But it doesn’t.
It doesn’t come from me, or Instagram validation, or your perfectly edited image, or your bag (newsflash) although all of those things can bring beautiful (fleeting) happiness
Journaling simply brings you back to yourself
To your infinite power and limitless-ness
To a way of existing that began since you were a speck of a star
And if I could wrap my arms around you and show you ‘the way’
But all it would show you is ‘my’ way
Granted some of it ‘works’
But it will never work like You are able to
Which happens when you rediscover the complete and indescribable vastness of You.
And so, we journal
Out of the bleakness of our minds
Into the darkness we go
And it is dark sometimes when we unravel it all
And I’ll sit in the dark spaces of loss and grief and self esteem shred into ruins and self hatred – the holes we try to fill on the outside
the burning desire for labels and love of the wrong kind
The darkness we fall into when we fall for the lies of
‘Throwing your life away’ ‘not filling your potential’ and the fear of failing in the eyes of society
And so we run
Or smother it all
Bury her down underneath the impossible heaviness of being – is it any wonder it all seems so hard sometimes? –
Where the risks we take aren’t even monetary any more, that’s a base risk we have come to believe is dangerous
But what is more dangerous and risky still?
Opening up into ourselves and going into our holes in order to find our way out again
And why that’s risky?
Not even because it’s a ‘waste of time’ or ‘losing time’ (time is money after all)
But that we might find something we’d rather not know about
Because we might have to sit in the darkness for a while in a place where ‘love and light’ is the only acceptable way of being
And so I’ll tell you to journal
100001 times if I need to
As a route into the infinite you
Because there you will find what you have been taught you should never seek
Because how would you function in a society designed to put you back together, if you were not broken at all?
The greatest myth of society is that you are broken, and that something or someone can fix it
The greatest thing we could ever know
Is the understanding that we came here not broken but whole
And finding our way back to that is all you’ll ever need
To create and receive exactly what you ask for.