BRING THE PASSION BACK!
The inbetween of Summer And Autumn.
At first, it felt like I wanted to scrap everything, like you do when you literally wonder what it would be like to just take your passport one day and hop on a flight to a country far away and assume a new identity and totally start your life all over again.
Because life, well, it’s pretty perfect here, but after a while even perfection gets dull. I wanted to tear it out and start all over and I wondered if it was self-destruct, to tear up everything that everyone else would see as the dream but
We all dream different dreams, and we all can dream new ones.
We are leaving our beautiful luxury home on a golf resort for a mini chateau in France which will no doubt be freezing cold, probably a bit flaky around the edges (like moi, of course), and still I will love it all the more for that.
And this is normal.
It’s normal to live like this, where actually what you want is forever in flux and then when you get what you want you realise it wasn’t what you wanted anyway and so you change it and yes, they’ll struggle to keep up with you and struggle to understand even what you are doing, but they’ll either understand or they won’t.
My husband just looked at me when I told him a few months ago I’ve decided I want to live in a chateau.
He’s learned to keep any doubts to himself now!
And here we are, a month later, about to move into this little dream of a home with pretty shutters and acres of land for the kids to roam about in and a princess tower and log fires for the winter.
But really, it was never about the castle
(although it kind of was, because well, Versailles and can you believe I found out there was an ACTUAL VERSAILLES CONVENTION AND I NEARLY BECAME ONE OF THOSE ODD PEOPLE WHO GO TO CONVENTIONS DRESSED IN FULL ON COSTUME, except the tickets had sold out. Luckily, probably. )
But for me it was about
Doing that thing again
Turning away from what had become overwhelming suffocation and going into myself and reminding myself of what this was about
Which was never about a luxury home or you or me even
But simply a way to live and to exist to create
To write, to dream.
And here, in ease
I’d stopped creating, was feeling less inspired, and I needed to wrap myself with edges of UNease again, new surroundings, new challenges so that I could inspire and uplift ME and my work and my soul that only dances when it’s edgy, not when it’s easy.
And that’s not sabotaging or avoidance like the world might have you believe in the Guru age
Creation IS the match to the firework, and it needs to be sparking before it bursts and it doesn’t burst into flames when it’s floating on the ocean.
It bursts when things are hard, when you have to rise through, when you have to go into
And what they see is the pretty chateau or the beautiful work and a life of beauty
But what we long for
Is not the ease that we drown in, but to feel alive, and when we are alive, we create in the only way we know how.
And the same with my work, with the entire coaching industry, I was telling Hanni yesterday how all I want is to turn off the noise and everyone saying the same thing and even leaving social media I can’t escape it somehow
The same as with photography as much as I love the heart and soul of photography the wedding photography industry itself was EATING itself with its sameness and if I had to hear the words ‘fine art’ one more time…
So I ran to an island instead and wrote books about photography and now I’m running to a Castle to avoid the coaching space where I will write more books and probably at some point a romance novel or two maybe- (YES I actually completed and submitted my first short story this week and it felt so good to write fiction again)!
But above all I’m running to a space and time of something new, something different, a time of growth and change and upheaval.
Because most of us learn that is something to run FROM, and instead we should reliably build the comfortable life, the middle class ideals of perfection and ease
But what if
In running from upheaval and conflict and change
We are running not only from more chances to GROW and to create and to go deeper in what this was always supposed to be about anyway the artistry, the creativity, the process of creation
we are running from the things that keep our us passionate and burning and alive. And if you’ve been feeling detached, like you’ve lost the passion, like you want to turn away from everything you thought you knew and adored
Do it then;
Find your beauty and your dream by doing what most people would see as impossible, because you and I know it’s simply the only way possible.
Creativity and flow and passion and what you truly desire, is rarely found in the comfortable.
MY NEWEST BOOK IS OUT! AND FREE FOR YOU! (limited time only)
Two weeks ago I set myself the challenge of having ten books on Amazon before Christmas, let’s see how we go! Because if you want to do / be / have those things you keep talking or dreaming about?
At some point you actually have to go do / be / have them.
So here is book 2 and it’s FREE for you entirely for 2 days (only) over on Amazon. For the photographers, creatives, who want to tell the world about what they are doing in a way that feels good – aka, SELLING, with ease and confidence.
Oh, and if it helps you in any way? I’d be so thankful and appreciative for your review.