I realised recently
That I have been medicating the magic.
Numbing the pain
Treating it as an inconvenience
Like something to be pushed down, or pushed away.
And it has been coming in slow waves of realisation that actually
Because that monthly time of getting my period is actually a time that shouldn’t be pushed INTO and through and treated like a source of absolute frustration and annoyance
Which really, it is because the absolute migraines that come with it and the pain and the nausea
Really? No, thank you.
We just changed our perception of how this was supposed to
When very LIFE itself is influenced by the feelings you carry there – no accident that my daughter was born stubborn and defiant and oppositional when I carried these exact emotions throughout her entire pregnancy and birth, fighting the entire time for the birth I wanted, fighting against medical advice and probably maybe the entire industry I don’t know, and definitely also against the midwife who I had to fight for dignity and respect and even basic human dignity – I swear to God I will never give away my power like that again! –
well then of course, you hold power for creation within you!
And regardless or not of whether you’ve birthed – you are still designed and made for the process of creation, no matter how blocked you feel or how much of a mountain you feel has arisen in front of you.
Creation? Is you.
And so I find myself surrounded by my entirely gorgeous sisterhood, the goddesses and the witchy and the creatrix and the dreamers and makers and storytellers and magpies and mavens
SO CONFUSED… caught up in which path to follow or what to create or how to price or with these insanely long lead times for their giftings all based around fear and scarcity….
Stalling on their mission.
What if you just decided that
Creation was no longer an option
Something reserved for your spare time AFTER the ‘paid work’?
Continue to procrastinate and while away your life on social media
At the same time telling me you’d rather be doing something else.
I get it. This morning the ocean was calling to me clear and strong, and as we drove past two paddleboarders out at sea my mind immediately teased me with the vision of my own little paddleshack, just me and some boards for hire.
I’d do yoga paddleboarding and midnight boarding and paddlepicnics to secret locations.
And maybe I will! (I tell myself I could write at the same time)
I come to the cafe
I order my coffee
And I write.
Because – creation FIRST.
The one I am most called to, the one it’s always been about.
And you will always have a million starry visions of creating because of course you are gifted with ULTIMATE creation and you ARE ultimate creation so doesn’t it make sense then to
daily, simply, easily, choose – TO CREATE, first?!
You’d be living what you are called to
And you’d birth
Even progress itself
And you’d do it freely
Instead of the scroll
Even the WORK
We start – WITHIN.
Isn’t that where it all springs from?
Maker-creator, the divine and divinely-made
Isn’t it time we honoured that magic?
Not plugging it up
Medicating it away
Acting like it doesn’t exist and like we can carry on like productive machines
But simply breathing in the actual PAIN of creation and actively CHOOSING IT as the very own earth of our daily routine
Grounding yourself in creation.
The REAL grinding is not in the hustle, but in the rooting
The grounding of yourself, to yourself-
Instead of looking for love and fulfilment in all the wrong places
The real work is to go and drink deeply from the beauty of you, the creator-you, the you that every month so powerfully restores and renews and create
And honour it.