I’ve always really struggled to spend money on clothes and spa treatments etc- things for myself –
And then this weekend I realised
I’ve NEVER looked back and thought
*I wish I didn’t buy X’
* I really regret buying that and it’s really impacted me long term*
Now I get sometimes people make non-wise investments. People get caught in timeshare nightmares, stocks that fail, etc.
But this is about spending money and making investments into the things that make you feel good! That uplift you mentally, emotionally, spiritually, physically.
This weekend I went and had my hair, nails, brows done at the gorgeous luxury on-site spa. I went to the gym and spent time in the sauna.
Then I went for a major clothes shop (not a big deal for most people but a major big deal for someone who generally gets bored shopping and has never really felt entirely confident in her own skin enough to dress to reflect that).
Because I realised
There is always more to come, more to receive
You don’t look back and regret buying something you love and desire because of what it costs
The only thing that stops me spending on myself is fear that there is not enough money. That I don’t have enough or that it won’t return to me somehow, which is why this is only the second time in ten whole years I’ve had my nails done!
Fear that somehow I’m not ‘good enough’ to earn what I desire
and that somehow I’m being bad by spending what I have
On things that ‘aren’t really that important’ (because I have no problem investing in my business)!
What this all meant of course
Was that the guilt I had around spending on myself, the fear, the reluctance to just enjoy and let go and embrace
Was reflective of how I felt about myself.
I didn’t feel good enough or like I was worthy or deserving enough to spend on myself
I didn’t feel like I could ever look good enough anyway
I didn’t feel perfect enough
And there wasn’t this magical turning point or exercise I did that changed how I felt
It was just a slow dawning realisation that;
I’ll never regret aiming to look and feel amazing
That there is always going to be enough to support my true desires
That there is always more to receive
And it was time to let go and enjoy and embrace.
*** what are you holding back from purchasing or spending on, and what’s the real reason behind it beyond the money?
Could be personal, home, or biz –
But know, there is always enough and always more to receive;
and you rarely look back and regret anything that made you feel like the truest and most glorious version of you.